I currently have been dating someone new and that has been going well, really well. This person keeps me going, positive, and motivated. We have our ups and downs, but that is normal. I really appreciate this person and gives me hope that 2009 will be a good year despite its start.
On another note, I guess all the stress of 2008 and even the past caught up to me for I had been diagnosed with being diabetic. I had symptoms of being tired, thirsty, and having to piss every 45 minutes. Well after going to the doctor, my sugar level was in coma range and I coulduve been on the floor somewhere instantly. So now I have a needle that I have to use daily. Not how I imagined 2009 to start, but I have been learning to deal. So I was already exercising daily, but I have to change eating habits as far as eliminating certain things from what I eat. Not only did they find that they also found out that I have high blood pressure. Not only that, they found out that I have some sort of thyroid something which can lead to weight gain and other nervious system issues if not caught early. I have always been exercising and have not gained anything but just being tired, exhausted after work, easily frustrated or irritated has been what I experienced. Nonetheless, it was like one thing after another and it so weird cause it all came out of the blue. I had been to the doctor many times previous, and blood pressure was in check, sugar levels were normal, and everything. Seem like it all got shot 2 weeks ago.
Emotionally, I have been up and down cause there are so many things I have to do now to make sure that I am in check. The thing that keeps me going is that I have a small circle of people that keep me going everyday. Even though most are scattered through the world right now, I have at least my dude that I am with that keeps me motivated and going daily. I have now my moms, even as mixed up as she can be at times staying on me to make sure I am okay. I also have my roommate as well making sure things are cool. In one doctor visit it was hard for me to swallow all the news at one time.
I just am glad to be alive another year at least to be able to see another day. I try to appreciate every day as it comes and I appreciate the people that have come into my life in a positive way. I feel this year will be full of changes and surprises as they have already come to me. But I am ready to deal with them as they come to become that better and stronger me in 2009.
