Sunday, September 16, 2007

Dysfunctional Thoughts After Surviving Another Year

So I just turned 26 yesterday and God has allowed me to live another year! Thank youuuuu...

So since I have been behind in my posting of my blog already, I owe my blog some love. So yo, I had my birthday yesterday and it seemed like a regular day at the most, but since I was able to spend it with the real people who cared and heard from the real people I care about made the day worth wild.

After having such a good vacation on Miami Beach. I had a pretty chill birthday. I went out to eat, went to the movies and seen Jodi Foster act a fool in "The Brave One", and received phone calls and texts from people wishing me a happy b-day.

Then a couple of thoughts have been running through my head. They are completely random and I may get real personal and deep for a second, but many family. Family are suppose to bring you up, be there when you need them, and all the rest of the good things you see from all those old family tv shows like Family Matters, Full House, and Family Ties. But really, family aren't hardly like that even though we wish they were. I was a little bit hurt when my own mother didn't remember my age or could it be due to her own age. I don't know she has a lot of stress going on in her life and I cannot be there like I wish I could be, but sometimes I feel so oligated to her. Should I? Should I even detail within my blog this story so people can get more of a view of what I feel on the inside? I don't know. Fingers trembling. If someone asks you for money all the time, but you never truly see where it goes should you worry or question it? If someone claims they have bills coming from here and there, but as much money you give them they still seem like they in trouble, what do you do? If someone has been waiting for years on a settlement.....let's say about 15 years ....on a case settlement and nothing has come yet which is their reason for not working should they give up on the settlement and move on or keep on keeping the faith? I could go on and on, but I am not sure who is reading or what I string of post I might stir up from this one. I'll see what responses I get and decide whether to detail these inner thoughts.

Until then Latah.....

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Life has its checks and balances. Nothing is never where you want it and when you want it, but somehow..everything ends up right where it needs to be. This person in your life is NOT the center. God is your center.
When you lend a helping hand to this individual, be sure to do JUST that. A lending hand. NOT life support. Your life is supposed to be fulfilled at its greatest. Helping those along the way is greater. Detouring off to be hero is not. Let those who can help themselves, HELP THEMSELVES. This is the way of GOD, your center, and thus should be the way of you.

You'll have to determine what level of help a person needs. OR if they need to be cutoff.

bLaQ~n~MiLD said...

Well you know how I feel about your mother so I'm not going to delve into that right now. I do however believe in the comment made by the anonymous writer that you have to determine how much you're going to put yourself out there to help her. I've told you that before. You can only do but so much pa. Believe me, I know. LoL.

~Damnit!

Anonymous said...

Hello. And Bye.