The After Party

My birthday was yesterday and I am now 27! I don't feel old, but man 27 years. I never thought that I would get to this point. It seem only yesterday I was in high school in the lunch room trying to figure out when I was going to get my diploma. Only yesterday when I was wondering during registration at an HBCU, when I was going to ever get my degree. Only yesterday when I wondering when I would move into my own place and do my own thing. Man I wish I could relive some of those days.

But I can actually say my birthday was great. Even though I did go ahead and go to work and my birthday landed on a Monday......it was cool. Many friends called me and wished me a happy birthday along with people I hadn't talked to in a long time. It was a good day. The people that mattered were the people I talked to.

At work, they got me a card and embarrassed me by singing happy birthday to me which was crazy. Well, I am going to keep this post short.

So I guess for this weekend, maybe I am going to treat myself by going out or something perhaps? Haven't done so in ages..........but just something to celebrate my happiness.

In the Middle of the Night......

In the middle of the night, I have awakened and decided to write in my blog. Really what's on my mind ? Nothing really.......

Well.....

People come into your life for a reason right? Whether it is for a long while, a week, a day, or just a change of the season......people come and go. It is true though and I am really getting to understand that life always comes with many lessons that are learned. I see that I have more control over what I decide to tolerate and decide not to tolerate. Random as it seems, being single for a couple weeks now has been rough, but an interesting experience. Every now and then I get in the slump of "damn I'm single now....what do I do?" Then, I also realize it gives me time and space for me to think, reflect, and grow.

That's all folks. I just wanted to share just that. I think I am going to lay it down. Good night !

Month of the Virgo

September, the month of the Virgo. I will be celebrating my birthday September 15th. What does that mean? Probably just another day in which I realize that I am getting older. Do I think that I seen everything and experienced life to the fullest yet? Nope, not even the least bit.

I can say that this year has truly tested me in more ways than one. How it will end, I have no clue. All, I know is that right now I am going through an emotional time in my life where I feel I don't have anyone. I think I have exhausted the use of my friends in a recent situation I had been dealing with that I feel bad even talking to them at times just because.....yup just because. It is about getting to know me again and getting back to focusing on the goals that I had setup for myself. I am so afraid because I was on a journey with someone to live life and achieve goals, yet recently I had to drop them off to go back on my journey alone after years of knowing this person.

I ain't gonna lie to y'all, I still hurt and still cry. But the funny thing is that I been hurt by so many things in the past before that lately when I cry no tears come out. Call it dry eyes, I don't know, but right now I am thinking hard about everything and just feeling so much different shit right now. I know I should be sleep right now for I have to go to work in the morning, but I'd just thought I'd share my current feelings. I need to remember this is my month though. I need to enjoy it. Maybe, I will plan a trip or go somewhere as a present to me. What do you all think I should do?